Think Thin!

7:31AM - hohoho

Ho Ho Ho, Merry Christmas?
No.. not really. I hate thinking of all the fatty food and all the cakes that comes with christmas. Blah. 

Anyway.. I've been gone for a little while, but I'm back and need the support. I've lost about 6 lbs, but now i'm on a plateu. I want to lose more!

For christmas i bought myself this panty-hoes (or how you spell it) and they ROCK . They are firming so i have this superflat stomac and my thighs are way skinnier. I might never take them of! ;) 

Hope y'all are doing good. And remember to stay away from the christmas food - it's baaaaaad! 

Lot's of love, K.

Current mood: content

7:25AM - ho ho ho

Ho Ho Ho, Merry Christmas?
No.. not really. I hate thinking of all the fatty food and all the cakes that comes with christmas. Blah. 

Anyway.. I've been gone for a little while, but I'm back and need the support. I've lost about 6 lbs, but now i'm on a plateu. I want to lose more!

For christmas i bought myself this panty-hoes (or how you spell it) and they ROCK . They are firming so i have this superflat stomac and my thighs are way skinnier. I might never take them of! ;) 

Hope y'all are doing good. And remember to stay away from the christmas food - it's baaaaaad! 

Lot's of love, K.

5:42PM - ARG

Jeg er sååååå lei. 
I'm so sick of my family.

4:26PM

checking

10:25PM

The bitch got my body.. I want it back, like God intended ...

9:56PM - Swimswimswim

Just got home from swimming my ass off. It was great. I had forgotten how much I love to swim :) I'll do it more often I think.. A little expencive maybe ($ 3 or 2,5 euros or £ 1,7) each time, so since I'm not the richest person, twice a week will cost a bit after some time. And I can work out as much as I like for free (parents pay) at the gym, so I'll go there mainly.
I hope I worked off some calories today, even if I didn't swim for as long as I would like..

I'm feeling very fat lately. I know I AM fat, but I feel like the fattest person alive! Blah. That will change, I hope. I'm very determinded in the evening, but not in the morning. That sucks..

7:13PM - a new day

Not a good day - again! I think something is seriously wrong with me. Maybe it's b/c I'm on the pill, and normally I would have my periode now? Doesn't matter anyway, I'm still a weak person. I had a bun and a small ice-cream today. NONONO! Tomorrow it's friday. I'll not have anything good or sweet or whatever. As little food as possible. And I'm going to visit my (maybe) bf. Isn't it a bad sing that I rather want to stay at home, alone, watching a movie, instead of seeing him? :S Don't know what to do with him. I wish I could say; "Listen, I think you're really hot (or whatever :P), but I'm not "in love with you". But, hey, let's have sex every once and a while..." But he won't say that cuz he's afraid of hurting me and visa vesa. (b/c of our mutural best friend) anyone got a suggestion on what to do?!
Anyways.. I'm going to the swimming hall soon to work off some of the crap I had today.
I'm really feeling low lately. Can't stay away from food, the guy, tired, school sucks.. OH, I SUCK.

STAY STRONG. (and if you're up for it, make me stay strong! Comment on my LJ?)

Kisses to all you lovely ladies.

Current mood: crap

Current music: john mayer

10:53PM - goodnight

Just had a visit from my soon-(maybe)-to-be-bf. (not really my bf yet, but having sex..) And he said that I looked thinner today :) It may not be true, but I appreciate the effort. He's cute, not handsome. He's 3 years older than me, so that's good. Lives one hour away - not that good. Has a really bad breath sometimes, but is a good kisser. Good in bed. But I don't really have the "romantic" feeling about him. I can't explain it. Maybe there's something wrong with me? Well, there is, but I don't know what to do.
The worse part is that his my best friend's best friend. You know? She'll be angry if I dump him and if he dumps me, so we're stuck. Atleast I am. Don't know what to do, so I guess I'll just keep on whatever we're doing and see what happends. :/
Food today was ok until after school. AND I just had a cracker-bread, but don't think it will do to much difference. Tomorrow, I'll do better and I'm going to the gym :)

Have a great morning/afternoon/night or whatever. (It's 11 pm here) Kisssss

Current mood: okay

7:35PM - ..

I've done allright today, but I just can't seem to stop eating two slices of bread when I come home from school. Ugh. I know I shouldn't, but still I do it. And after I ate some vegetables for dinner with my mum. And I had a few pieces of candy, but now it's all gone so I'll not eat more of that.. I just hope that I haven't screwed up that much. We had gym at school today, and I really had a great work-out, so hopefully the bread didn't harm me. But the thing is that now I probably haven't burned off any calories, I just burned off the ones I ate. I won't lose weight if I keep this up, so I will not. Tomorrow, it's two weeks til I'm going to the US. I'm really looking forward to it, but also dreading it, cuz of the food. I can't get away eating nothing when my family is with me all the time. But I'll do my best, and I'll do even better before I go. I want to be a skinny ass bitch. :)
My stomac actually hurts from my workout today.. damn, it feels good. If I can just work up some hungerpains too, I'm in heaven !!! ;)

Keep up the good work, ladies. DON'T GIVE UP! DON'T GIVE IN!!! :*

Current mood: calm

7:34PM - My ticker :)

4:56PM - Boring..

Am I boring? I feel boring. I have nothing to do.. or I have a lot to do, but it all has to do with school, so I don't want to do it. I wish I'd do it. But no. I'll go to the gym in half-an-hour. That will be good for me. Need to get the fat of my thighs and stomac. I really have had a huge craving for chocolate cookies today. I'm glad we don't have any.
Well, maybe I'll go clean my room now, before I go to my work out. It needs to be done.

5:20PM - Ladida

Food intake today;

Breakfast: Two slices of bread (as mentioned earlier)(healthy bread)
Lunch: Two slices of bread
Dinner: a slice of toast and two chicken hotdogs. (not too bad)

Yepp, and that's it. No more food today, I beg. Already eaten too much.
But it's ok to drink tea and coffee, right? When there's no suger added, it's not any kcals??
I've allways imaginated that there aren't, but I could be wrong.. Please answer, anyone. :)

AND I've done pilates today. I like it a lot. It's not too hard, but still very good for you. <3

Do well today, girls, and even better tomorrow!!!

Current mood: schoolwork..

Current music: A little less sixteen candles...

4:35PM

12:41PM - I suck

Hey ladies =)

Sorry that I havent't been here for ages, but I've been working alot and went on a trip to France. The trip was fun, and I got a tan, but off course I gained some weight again! I really hate the food in France. Allways sugar and chocolate, and if you order food you get free fries. Not good for people like me. But on the other hand, the trip was cool cuz I met my french "boyfriend" and we had sex and just enjoying eachother and the fact that we might never see eachother again. It was great. :)

But now I'm home and I feel like a cow. I hate it. So here I go again with the no-food-all-excersice thing. And I really need it to work this time. I'm sick of being fat and never the beautiful one. That really bothers me, you know. I'm allways the cute one. Ah, I hate that word - CUTE. Like I'm a fucking child. I need to get rid off my "puppy-fat" and stop being cute. Can't I be sexy for once?

Another reason for me to get thinner, is that I'm sort of going out with this guy. It's very new and a bit odd (cuz he's my bestfriend's friend) but he seems to like me, and I think I like him too. Time will tell, right? But I feel like if I don't lose weight and start to look good, he will lose his interest, and I'll go back to being the person no one likes. I hate that, so I have to work really hard this time.

I desided that I want to lose atleast 10 lbs, but I would love it if I lost more. I need all the support I can get. :) Love all of you. Kisses.

Current mood: drained

9:18PM - humm

The Important Stuff
Age:	18
Weight:	125
Heighest Weight:	127,5
Lowest Weight:	103,5
Current Weight:	125
Goal Weight :	110
Fave food :	Scampi with garlic bread. Ouf.
Fave Drink :	Coca Cola Light, which is a good thing
Fave Exercise :	Dancing, jogging, swimming
Thinspo :	Beautiful models
Where do you slip up?	When I get drunk..
When did it start?	When I realized that I was getting fat
Why did it start?	Because I got sick at being fatter than everybody
Does Anyone know?	No, don't think so
Do you want help?	No!
Diet pills?	Haven't tried it yet, but want to..
fave binge food:	Chocolate cake
Fave dieting food:	Green apples, eggwhites
How many cals do you consume a day?	500?
What tips do you use to lose weight?	Don't eat, exercise..
What do you see when you look in the mirror?	A fat cow.
Are you in a relationship?	No. Partly because I don't feel confortable in my body and don't want anyone to see all of it.
If so, Do they pressure you to be thin?	Well, yes. That pressures me.
Are you the fat or thin one out of your friends?	Fat. At least that's how I feel.
Are you depressed?	Totally.
Do you self harm?	I've cut myself, but not anymore.
Ever tried to commit suicide?	No, not really.
Ever been to a psychologist??	No, thnak you.
Fave song?	Hum, "the only one I trust"
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Current mood: cranky

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5:35PM - Updates on day 2

Day two has come and gone in my soup-diet. (Want the recipe, let me now!) I lost 0,4 kg/0,9 pounds from day 1 to day 2, so that makes a total of 1 kg/2,2 pounds. It's really not much. I wanted to lose a lot more, but.. Oh, well. It's not over yet. I'm on my day 3, and it's going ok. Only soup, vegetables and fruits. But I desided not to eat very much of it. Just the soup for dinner, so my mom is ok with it. Today I've eaten; BF: 1 bowl of soup. Lunch; One apple, one pear. Dinner; boiled vegetables and a bowl of soup.
Not too bad, right? I really hope that I'll lose a hole lot more by the end of the diet-week. If not, it's back to starvation..

Hope you are doing well, ladies!

NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS THIN LOOKS!!! :*

Kiss K.

5:05PM - ...

Weight this morning; 120 lbs

Current mood: sad

1:32AM - Oh my gosh

I'm so fucking fat that I'm embarrased to look at myself. I just got some clothes I ordered from a catalog and I looked so horrible in them. My ass was out there and sagging and my belly was popping out. I felt like a freak that should belong to a circus or something. "The fattest and ugliest woman alive! Come see it!" Yup, that's me. And I now I'm fat, but still there is something wrong in my mind. Cuz every time I'm on the right way, a little voice in my head says "Oh, you can eat some cake. Come on, you're not THAT fat. It doesn't matter.." But it does matter! And when I let this voice convince me I feel worse than shit after. I just want to cut a hole in my stomach and die. I really feel like I'm not worth anything and since I ate that piece of cake, I should not deserve to live.
Today went kind of ok until I got home from school. Then I made myself a waffle, and then another one. When I realized what I had ate, I decided to purge. BUT I can't purge unless I have eaten so much that I feel sick. Soo, I started to eat more shit, like chips and dip. BUT when I finally got so sick that I could purge, I couldn't!! I don't know why, but nothing would come up. Boy, that made me mad. Therefore I decided to skip dinner and only ate an apple. That's a few hours since, and I'm feeling better now. But I'm still very very very angry with myself for eating. I guess I'm not a strong person, like I know a lot of you are. I'm just a fat cow without determination. I can honestly say that I hate myself.
But, I will not give up. I'm going to keep on dieting til I lose the lbs I want. And that's why I need someone to help me. I need a person that is really motivated and strong that can help me to keep my focus. Someone to yell at me when I'm weak. Someone to encourage me to keep the diet going until I reach my goal. Anyone up for the challange? Please...?

You will find my msn on my LJ. Thank you very very much in advance.

Sorry for this long post, but I needed to tell someone and get it out. Thank's for listening ;)
- K.

1:22AM - Help?!

My msn (again), for the people that would like to be my diet-partner:

mini_kua@hotmail.com

Thank you! :*

5:25PM - jabbajabbadoo

It's not going like I planned it. The main reason is my stupid old grandfather. I've been to my grandfather's from wednesday til today, so I couldn't do my diet. But in addition to that he made me eat chocolate and cake and other bad stuff. He's so stupid, and my mother too.
I hate my mother.
First she told me that I look pregnant. Ok, I don't care, I'll just diet harder.. BUT when I turn down her chocolate cake, she says to me; Ah, you mustn't starve yourself all the time. WTF? I hate the bitch. I'll avoid her forever if I can.
Luckily I'm home now, and I'm back on my diet. My parents are going to a dinner party tonight, and I'm supposed to make my own dinner. As if! It feel good to know that I won't have to eat mom's ugly dinner today. :)

NO MORE FOOD!

Love K.

Current mood: angry